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Tuesday, April 13 The Loner I overheard them talking about their plans for prom. They would take a limo there with all their friends and have a grand ol' time like any high school senior should. I guess that this really got me thinking about my own social life. I really wished I could belong to a group of people. You know, like really belong. I haven't felt that in a long time, and although I have friends and close friends, they really aren't that close and I really don't have any one group that I can hang out with and call my own. I wished that I was there, a part of their social circles, going to their parties, and just having fun. But no. My life was different. I am a loner. I don't have those kinds of connections. I'm not a very social person. But I really wished things could have turned out differently sometimes. They say that high school is either one of the best or one of the worst times of your life. Well, it wasn't so great for me.. all on my oddy knocky. J. Savage posted @ 4/13/2004 03:21:00 PM | Wednesday, April 7 Crushed. I don't know how I feel about her anymore. Still haven't talked to her, even though we both share a class. Yeah, I'm shy like that. She was at my locker today, or the one next to it. Nope, no eye contact, no exchange of words. That's how it is. I think it's about time for a complete reworking of my personality. This kind of fear needs to be squashed. J. Savage posted @ 4/07/2004 08:05:00 PM | Friday, April 2 Talking to myself In my head, I had created my own little world. It was an imaginary fantasy where I am some sort of important figure who plays a role in making sure the world doesn't blow up. Yes. And when times get tough, I retreat to this little world, talking to imaginary characters to help dissuade the feelings of loneliness. Other kids must see me in the halls, talking to myself as I walk by. They must think I'm weird, or maybe even crazy. Good! Cuz we all know I am. J. Savage posted @ 4/02/2004 09:11:00 PM | Crushed. I think I'm beginning to have a crush on her. She has been there for so long. We've known eachother forever. And I think I'm beginning to like her even more. I don't know what to do about this. Probably nothing. What do you do when you have a crush on one of your oldest friends. It gets awkward maybe. I don't want it to get awkward. And what ever happened to the other girl? The one that I liked for so long, but never really knew her? I still kinda have this thing for her, but I'm really too shy to talk to her. Lol, what a loser. J. Savage posted @ 4/02/2004 07:40:00 PM | In the beginning What you see here is a new life. It is the blog in its infancy. It is my blog. I feel like I have so much things to say, but sometimes it's really hard to find a place to express those thoughts. Maybe this quaint spot on the web will help. Read, comment, then read some more. J. Savage posted @ 4/02/2004 07:34:00 PM |

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